a little bit o'' this & a little bit o''that.
Facing contradictions floating in my head.
Published on May 16, 2004 By illusivedreamer In Life Journals
I am an entity of nothingness.
I am everything I am.
I am a light.
I am darkness.
I am a shell containing all the ingredients needed to survive.
I am a survivor.
I am a failure.
I can teach.
I can learn.
I know nothing.
I know everything I need to know.
I have hope.
I give hope..
I have lost faith.
I need faith.
I am strong.
I am weak.
I have given life.
I have maintained life.
I have twisted my life up.
I have relinqueshed all hope that I will become any better at anything.
I have decided I will be the best at everything.
I am sick.
I am well.
I am happy.
I am sad.
I have friends.
I am alone.
I am less then what I set out to be.
I am all that I am going to be.
I am a contrdictory soul.
Nothing is what it seems.
Everything is the way it is.
It seems....I am no more or no less than what was ever destined to be claimed as my own.
I love.
I believe.....I think.
I'll go on.

Comments
on May 17, 2004
Beautiful.
on May 24, 2004
I am worried about you. Haven't heard anything for a week. If you get the chance to peek on, please let me know how things are going.
on May 24, 2004
Hi WF, I could only stay on for a few mins (at the library again), so as long as this lady doesent tell me I have to get off, I am going to email you. Great hearing from you.
on May 24, 2004
That was lovely
on May 24, 2004
I really like this ...i keep going back and re-reading it.

It makes me contemplate.

Jess
on May 24, 2004
In the end, as in the beginning, nothingness is all we have. Our duty and reason for being is to make peace with it. Then, you are really ALIVE!
on May 29, 2004
If you check in, I've emailed you my phone number.